A little over a month ago this sweet baby girl entered our lives. She is my birthday buddy, and I love that we can share that…as she grows up, and I get old-ha! She is her own little person, and is just a doll baby…I mean really….look at those cheeks! Could she get any cuter?
Before Isabel was born I had this major fear that I would have to forget about Brie once this new little one entered our lives, and that scared me. I placed this fear at God's throne almost daily, but I just couldn’t leave it there. The night before Isabel was born, I wrote her a letter telling her all about Brie. My heart shattered again as I told my future niece all about her older sister who was Heaven. Even as I write this now I’m having to blink away tears. The way Brie impacted my life in the short time that we had her is something that I won’t ever forget. I described Brie to Isabel and shared my fond memory of her. I finished the letter, wiped my eyes, closed my laptop, and brought my heart before the Lord. I laid my fear of having to forget about Brie at His feet, and trusted Him that I would still be able to hold both of my precious nieces. I walked away from it, and didn’t look back. All I could do was trust.
On our birthday I held Isabel for the first time, and God touched my heart with such gentle love that it took me a second to wrap my mind around something that I saw in the face of this sweet girl. She scrunched up her face, then relaxed it, and it was in her peaceful look that I saw a glimpse of another little girl’s face that I won’t ever forget. I saw a brief glimpse of Brie, and it was in that look that my heart swelled with peace. I felt God just hold me close to His heart as I mentally held Brie and physically held Isabel both close to my heart. It’s difficult to describe what that moment felt like…it was just incredible. It’s amazing to me how God cares about even our most intimate thoughts that are buried within our hearts. He cares for us in such an enormous way that it humbles my heart. Who are we that He is mindful of us?
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Beautifully written, Aly. We hold Isabel in our arms and Brie in our hearts. :)
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